Jaeeon Trying (25 July 21)

I'll admit sometimes I feel quite lonely in my thoughts. JE kept a comfortable distance and friendship with NB and one day she disappears, abruptly, he doesn't know why. He doesn't know where. All he knows is it affects him more than he thought it would. 

And as he grapples with this he tries to seek solace in his old ways and it doesn't work out for him. He has to re-examine his philosophies regarding relationships. In the midst of that he finds out the truth and keeps trying to contact NB to talk. 

Does no one see this? Him trying? NB who ended things with him (and she's not wrong in doing so), left because of a lie. But had that been true...objectively speaking, barring the fact that she's hurt because she has feelings, what did he do wrong? 

Do you see why JE is unsure if he did anything wrong? She just left. Yes the deeper issue is that he really needs to figure out his feelings so that he can offer certainty and sincerity. 

But he needs to do this to grow, mostly for himself. Because it's not healthy to live with a mindset borne of past trauma. That's all. 


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