Necessary Sculpture Breaking (22 August 21)

Nabi's sculpture breaking was necessary. Initially, when her professor had asked her if it was breaking down or coming together, NB said it's open to interpretation. Then, it broke down fully. Like her own self in the show. And she put it back together!


It is a representation of Nabi coming together. Her learning to love her work again. And Jae eon helped her with it. He understands her world from the inside. From a place where only an artist ever could. The unspoken pain and sorrow. Her disappointment, her ambitions


Both Jaeeon and Nabi were grey characters. They were flawed, impulsive, horrible at communication, scared to love and be loved in return. And it wasn't a fairytale. Nor is reality.


This show beautifully constructed the parallels between their artwork and their personal lives. The professor tells Nabi to eat what she wants, to do what she wants and to love who she wants. Risks are necessary at times to achieve something great.


Dohyeok and Nabi's friendship is golden. And it's unfair to taint it with romance. And we see Nabi feel that pressure of disappointing Dohyeok several times. She doesn't string him along. She is honest with him. But he still persuades. And she feels this pressure to be perfect.


Her heart was always with PJE. She even said in ep 4 that they are more similar than she thought and they get along well. So it isn't just about lust. They had a solid friendship. If Dohyeok and Nabi did end up together, it wouldn't have ended well.


NB would have eventually resented him or would've drowned herself in what if's and that would have tarnished their friendship too. And tbh they just didn't have that sort of chemistry. I love Dohyeok and he's such a pure soul. But he's made for better things!


With PJE on the other hand, Nabi isn't afraid to show the grey shades of herself. She doesn't need to put on a persona. Because they are in fact quite similar. And they take solace in each other's imperfections and flaws.


Love isn't meant to be perfect, it's meant to feel right. And who decides if someone's love was successful or not? Many say they will break up. But in this moment, it's worth it. It's necessary to jump with both your feet sometimes to feel alive.


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