Sincerity and Need for Communication (23 August 21)

 That Park JaeEon was insincere was a lie that the world told Nabi and a lie that she chose to believe because of her fears and false beliefs. 

Let's go back to this scene in Ep 3, where he has been trying to be sincere towards Nabi, but she kept on dismissing him.


JE even voiced out his jealousy when Nabi went out with another man, in a way that also shows that he is grappling with the thought of feeling jealousy -- tentative, unsure, but acknowledged.


"I don't know. Maybe I got jealous"


"I'm not such a bad guy, am I?"


When he felt that Nabi was doubting him, JE was trying to confirm this with her by implying that he is not exactly what other people paint him to be, and that he wishes she would actually see it.


He even went as far as telling her that he liked her since the beginning, something which we will eventually find out to be the moment he saw her in the gallery. 


But Nabi was quick to dismiss his confession because she was trying to protect herself.


In classic JE fashion, he smiles through his sadness and disappointment.


He just told her he liked her since the very beginning, but Nabi dismissed his feelings and tells him he's not trustworthy.


He was trying to show Nabi his true intentions, but Nabi was reluctant, defensive, and insecure. It did not help that both Nabi and JE were not really good with expressing themselves, which eventually caused their heartbreak and misunderstandings.


And when their words cannot expound what their hearts want to say, their actions do the talking.


This scene has established the language by which they understand each other well -- touch. Where no words need to be spoken and yet a mutual understanding is attained.


This scene was otherwise easy to ignore when one is overwhelmed by the scene that happens thereafter, where Nabi and JE finally succumb to their carnal desires for the first time. 


But it spoke a lot about the relationship that would follow -  an attraction that was real, raw, and undeniable, but at the same time ambivalent, cautious, and uncertain.


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